I have looked for love through countless affairs; I have looked for satisfaction on the Internet. I have never been faithful to my spouse. It has brought me great shame. It choked off my relationship with God, my family and my community.

I now realize that without God I am powerless. I can't just try harder. My battle can only be won by choosing life, and by choosing to surrender my life fully to God. I have always focused on my behavior: being a better spouse, instead of on my thinking: renewing my mind.

Your message of True Spirituality, through the power of the Holy Spirit, has changed me profoundly.

The love, peace and acceptance I crave can only come from God. I get that now. What I put into my mind is the key. I have been reading the Bible this week, as you suggested. Not because I have to, but because I want to. I want God to talk to me. I want God to stand by me in my struggles. I need him to fight this spiritual battle that rages in my mind. God loves me and wants a relationship with me. His Word shows me what the relationship looks like. God has been so faithful to me, even as I pushed Him away and openly sinned against Him. His love for me is overwhelming, despite my shortcomings. I want to pursue Him, because He has always been there for me. I want to be faithful to Him, because He has always loved me. I want to offer my body as a living sacrifice, because it is my spiritual act of worship to Him.

I'm not sure where this will lead, but I am ready for the journey. I am looking forward to reading his Word, not because I "should" but because it is the best way to get to know Him. I am looking forward to praying, not because it is required, but because I want to talk with Him. Chip, I realize you get hundreds if not thousands of these emails. Each one is slightly different, but all probably have the themes of loss, despair and hopelessness. I also have a sense that you ask God to bring about a revival in your congregation. I believe God is answering your prayers and I am but one of thousands going through the same transformation. Thank you for speaking God's Word so clearly. Thank you for your message of hope for the hopeless like myself. Your message of True Spirituality, through the power of the Holy Spirit, has changed me profoundly.